There is so much more to attraction towards someone than just physical attraction or the simple fondness of a person being intelligent. It drives me crazy trying to put it into words without getting too far out there.

So badly we can find someone attractive physically, and it's easy to get lost in that and lose control. I know that if I really long for and desire someone, it's because I'm not just attracted to someone physically, mentally, or even spiritually... but there is more than that.

I get tired of people I date if they are 2-D, simple, shallow, uninteresting. But I also get annoyed if they're too full of themselves. With some people, you just know if you aren't going to like them or things just won't work out. Like a hunch.

But, when there's a person that just pulls you in and wraps you up like a gift that you want to give to them, and it's so subconscious, it's so intense. That unspoken and unrelenting attraction. When you're around them everything else can just dissipate. Just an indescribable compatibility, an underlying attraction that is continuous.

The worst thing that could happen is when you've met that person and you know the potential is there, but you don't get a chance to make more out of it. Its like torture. Wanting to know if there's still a chance to explore everything there could be. Now picture that, this person is amazing. Then you get distanced half way across the country from each other after just realizing what you have, you mess up what may have been your only opportunity even through the distance and it haunts you every moment of the present day wondering if you will have one more shot because you know if you do you won't let it slip away for anything... STUPID!


I'm done talking about it... *shaking head*